before 50 lb weight loss

I had a breast ultrasound last week…

I refused the mammogram, so all I had was an ultrasound…

Afterwards I treated myself to a massage…

After the massage I felt a pain under my breast, that felt very similar to the pain I had last year(2014) after the breast

core needle biopsy(2 needle punctures)…

I went home & Googled the symptoms I felt last year after the breast biopsy…

Found out that sometimes the needle can pierce the Pleura, the chest wall, & cause a tiny bit of lung collapse, or the Pleura

fills up with fluid, or something like that…

The feeling like you are going to get pneumonia…

So today my family doctor calls & says he has got results back from the ultrasound…

They compared it to last year’s pictures which were taken BEFORE the biopsy…

So they say that there are 2 new “tails” that are different from last year…

Duh…Of course there are two new “tails”…

The breast biopsy flings through a lump & pushes out the other side of said lump…

Twice pushing out lump material into a tail formation…

Duh of course there are two tails that are new…I HAD A BREAST BIOPSY THAT CAUSED THEM…

Anyways, he’s like:”They want you to speak to a specialist”…he means they want me to have a lumpectomy right away & go

to

some guy to book the appointment for surgery, because that is ALL that is going to happen there promise

(not an intelligent discussion of all the myriad of options I have)…

I say:”First, let’s take a look at the hole in my chest caused by the biopsy…”

“I’d like to see the dimensions of this hole & why exactly it opened up during a massage a year & a half later…”

“& for the record, I am not having any new surgery until we make sure that hole is patched up to my lungs…”

So I went for a chest X-ray to see that pneumothorax hole…

& I didn’t worry about these two stupid tails they are seeing, I know how they got there…

That’s not cancer “growing”…That’s the result of plunging a needle twice through a lump…

How stupid is this world becoming that this is not obvious?

You catch more flies with honey, you catch more flies with honey…

Keep telling me this…

Let me be nice tomorrow…

12:30 pm going to have a little chat about “tails” & biopsies & spreading fear that should be apologies for Iatrogenic effect…

I am not going to be told that cancer is spreading when in reality things are fine…

Lord give me strength…

What a day…

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